Growing pains

for the past few months well probably just weeks right now. I have been debating if I am really ready to move out of my moms house hold. I applied for work in a city that is 35-40 minutes away from my beautiful city of Salt Lake. I am not entirely sure I can actually move out of the big city now that I've lived here for almost 8 years. All I know is the big city life, busy streets, constantly something to do. Moving to basically suburbia doesn't sound like something I am ready to do. If I get the job out there I don't know what I am going to do I only have two friends out that way. I have no furniture, I have a tv and two laptops with a pillow and a few blankets. Its going to be extremely rough if I do follow through with this move. I still want to go back to college for Athletic Trainer/Sports Medicine. I'm just not sure how I am going to do that living on my own I most likely won't have a roommate and will have two additional mouths to feed I'd have to take my puppies. I can't live without them, they are my whole wide world. 

     I personally do not understand how it is acceptable to attack and harass someone over the internet especially if you are an adult. One, no one should ever put themselves in someone else's personal relationships. I am sorry if a girl is not into a boy and they are friends then deal with it don't make a fucking issue out of it. Forcing that person or generally disliking that person because they are not interested becomes a problem. We are 20-25 years old here we should not be acting like little junior high kids and attacking someone over the internet. If you had a problem with then you should have come and said something to my face, not talking smack behind my back, talking 90% of what I said serious because half of it was a complete joke. One don't ever call me a cunt, because I'm not a cunt, bitch yes I can be a bitch if you make me out to be one. I am probably the biggest sweetheart in the whole world and would do anything for my friends because they mean the world to me. Even if that means driving from Salt Lake City to Ogden at 3am in the morning to take someone home I will do so. I will do anything for my friends, because you are more like family to me. There is a reason why I don't date friends, because of that. I hold my friendships closer to my heart than I hold anything else. It takes a lot for me to grow close someone and share things with that person to be talked behind when I have done nothing but be myself and be a total sweetheart. What you have done is poison a scene I was wanting to be part of and now I cannot decide if I even want to part of the Volkswagen Community because of this knowing that I will have deal with the drama.