Confession

I've never been so happy with my life then I do right now, in this moment. I don't know, it feels like good things are going to come for me. My dreams have been waking me up with a smile and happy. I'm done following my dreams and I am now chasing them. I'm happy with how I look, how I am getting thinner- I'm not saying I am fat. But, my body is finally filling out the way it should be. I just have this whole new out look on life, I don't know what is, how it happened. Whatever it is, I hope it stays.
Either later in the month or next month, I am buying a tripod for my acoustic project. I am very excited about this project, I just don't know what to name it. I really want to name it after a good charlotte song or something like (Harlow's song) it's really inspired me.

My biggest issue is choosing a college to go to. I really can't decide, my school has filled my head with self doubt. Both of my choices I really want to do. To be honest, I don't want to go to college, but I have no choice. If I could play guitar and do art, and live successfully at that I'd be so happy. But it's so hard these days to that anymore. I will so how come out on this end. Hence the acoustic project, it'll help me get noticed and start playing shows, i just need to find a good friend thats a great singer.

Projects: Art; music.

Alright, so I've spent weeks contemplating about this project I really want to do. I think now I am finally ready to start doing it. I want to start a solo acoustic project. Why not just be in a band? Right now, that just isn't an option. My friends who I know have the heart, have the drive, just aren't the type of people I want to do this with. I know it sounds very harsh, its not meant to be. I am doing another acoustic project with a long time friend of mine. I need to live for me, not wait on others to help me or be there, I've waited a long time.I can go solo, most of the stuff i'll be doing will most likely only be instrumentals - I personally don't think I sing all that well. Maybe on a song, I'll sing- I'll think about it.
things being purchased.
-tripod
-stool
-music stand

Overdosage of tea, art, movies, music.

Unfortunately, I have been blessed with plagued yet again- immediately after I finally kick it off.  I'm not going to lie, I get a hell of lot more work done now then earlier into the year. I've recently started doing the art style, I use to draw back in 2004- mostly due since I never leave my house. For the past two weeks I've had nothing but tea and water, that's it. I miss drinking coffee every morning, but that can wait til I am 95% better, and all my friends are shocked- they never see me without coffee or me not talking about drinking coffee. My world is coffee and humor, all summed up. I am assuming most of don't know that I play guitar as well- I started last spring. I've been wanting to play guitar since 2002, and I haven't had the money to buy a guitar new or used. Now, I've saved up and own two beautiful guitars that I can "sorta" play. I'm in guitar lessons at the moment, probably by the end of this month I will be able to play songs. I am ordering a Good Charlotte song book soon, yes, good Charlotte.
Really, what I've been doing for the past month is going to college to college. To be honest, I really don't want to go to college, but now a days you don't have that options. I'm a very ambitious little creature. I need something that'll keep me on my feet and I am highly worried the art world doesn't have that for me, like my other passion in music does. Does that mean, I'll leave my first love and talent in the dirt- of coarse not. I will further my art career as much as I can. Even if it means driving to the opposite end of the valley every week because I hate getting shots and living with strangers. I'm paranoid.