Confessions of poor college girl:

God forbid how many of us face this day-to-day when we go to the mall. I swear I have the most lavish, expensive taste a girl could possibly have! The other day I went and saw one of my school friends from HS, and we went to the mall, and the first store we go to is of coarse Nordstorms and I am a die heart fan of Winter Kate by Nicole Richie and the first piece of clothing I see is a $300 boho purple dress. I want it so bad! I seriously need to stop going to the mall poor, it makes me just want to cry my poor hazel eyes out. It just saddens me, this poor thing needs to end, stupid furthering education- you make all of us super duper poor and big starving babies! And fat ones too! I have to kiss my gym membership bye-bye. UNTIL I GET JOB! I also cannot return to school until I pay back or at least make payments on my debt, and I don't even own a credit card or a car or a new sparkly mac! Okay, I do own a car an older year Jetta but she's just to damn cute! I want a newer car or something, I just feel aweful for being such a mooch off of my poor mother, one day I will be able to help her! At least can I make her even prettier, being I know how to do hair and make up- on a professional lever, semi-professional level at that. 


I had a job interview earlier this afternoon and I really hope I get it. I think it's something I would be really good at, I am very professional, and reliable. I love talking to people and helping them, but I feel as if the interview didn't go so well. I need to get better at that! I really want this job, if I get it I will cry with joy and it'll help me out so much and I could really use some great, wonderful, and fantastic news at this point. I found out I might have to file bankruptcy and I am only 18, too me that is a huge ordeal and I am going to do everything in my power not to have to file, if I can. Even if it means budgeting myself even tighter, I think I can do that, it doesn't seem hard, just avoid malls, shopping centers, stores, starbucks, coffee houses, the apple store, petsmart, petco, target,sally's  and IKEA D:< what will I do? 
Live and not be in debt, I want perfect credit, I really do. I know that is very hard in this economy. A girl can dream can't she? I think so, everything will be ok, I'll just have to keep telling myself that over and over and over until I can believe myself. Positive Mental Attitude, that's all I'm about right now!