Beautiful Place; Better Place.

I haven't really posted much of anything in the last month or so, my life is so chaotic right now. I miss the simple days, such as camping with friends and family. This weekend was a rollercoaster of emotions, and I hope I never have to go through that again. Really the only thing that has gotten me through this week are friends and Good Charlotte. I've accumulated a huge debt, and soon to be a bigger one. I'm starting at new school maybe Wednesday or next semester, I just couldn't survive that other school. I love socializing and no one really wanted to socialize with me. I mean I was doing really good in that school, better then what I did in high school. I could be really successful Esthetician, but I've decided hair is where I am meant too be. It may not be for tattoos, but I got to be passionate at something to love it. Skin just wasn't it, the school I'll be attending I will still be doing skin but it won't be my main focus and anymore I am starting to think I need to focus on me. I've put so much stress on myself I've been loosing it. Some of us could just use a vacation from the real world, I'd give anything just to go on a camping trip and forget about what is at home. Fresh air would be the best thing in the world. I just got myself in a relationship and now I don't even think it is best for me. I'm not sure what to think anymore with everything. I've never second guess myself, but lately its all I've been doing is second guessing all my logic. I'm not my happy, cheerful, PMA attitude anymore. That has too stop, I'm suffering from it, I'm going to be happy and PMA all day. Maybe I'm just not getting enough protein? Whatever is can stop being a jerk

Tonight, was the nicest night I've had in awhile. I just went downtown with my best friend Tyler, we got coffee and just talked about life. It was nice, we just had a little bitch out with each other just getting things off our minds and backs. I haven't even gone out and done anything with anyone since last Friday- long time I know.
I've been in one of my girl moods  where all I want to do is watch Gossip shows, eat pizza, drink frappes and read gossip magazines. I guess that's too much to ask for since pizza is so freaking expensive same with coffee.
I now understand money is the evil to the world. Anyways I am trying to get a jobb so I can get myself back on track with life. Plus, it will help me be not so stressed out and get a place too live. I can't stand this living situation anymore.